Choosing Joy

As I am trying to become a more joyful mother and homemaker, I want to share my journey. My successes and my failures.

Yesterday was an emotionally taxing day. Nothing particularly terrible happened, just several small moments of feeling frazzled added up leaving me emotionally exhausted. Last night Logan woke up at twelve thirty am with a tummy ache. The only way he would sleep is if I held him upright. So I sat in the recliner as he lay on my chest asleep. I sat there for two hours awake in the middle of the night. I felt so grateful to get these extra cuddles in, as time is fleeting and I don’t get these cuddles as much as I used to. As he lay there I had a flash back to two nights after he was born. We were in the hospital bed he was asleep on my chest, the only thing that would calm him was sleeping on my chest. I thought of how tiny he was and how he just wanted to be on my chest, cozy, and feeling the comfort of his mother. This flash back made me feel so grateful that he still wanted me for comfort, as I know the day when he will grow out of that will come way too soon. I am grateful for the way God is working on my heart, I am grateful that I was able to enjoy those two hours in the night rather than wish I was sleeping. I am grateful He gave my heart joy as I soaked in the cuddles.

That being said I am so far from perfect at this, just earlier that morning I was frazzled and grumpy as I was trying Logan out of the car without waking him while a wasp was swarming me. I was unsuccessful at keeping him asleep, resulting in a 5 minute nap. I failed to remain joyful in that difficult moment, but that’s okay I am a work in progress and I will keep on leaning on the Lord for help with this.

There are so many moments throughout the day where we can chose to either have a pity party or find the good in the moment, even if it’s just a sliver of good. Let me tell you as much as I sometimes want to wallow in self pity life is so much better when you chose joy. If you have a fail moment and begin to wallow just remember it’s never too late to turn it around. Ask God to give you grace to handle the tough moments with joy and love.

Lean on God for strength.